As I continue to pursue this new adventure, I am finding that all the thoughts that are whirling, swirling, and dancing through my mind are struggling to find the page. Is it because I can’t seem to find the time to write? Or is there more to this block than meets the mind?
Radical Self-Reflection and being sincerely honest with yourself are hard enough – then add the idea of posting such intimate thoughts for the world to see…
As a result, the most recent time I tried to write, the following presented itself:
The craft of writing as eluded me these past few+ months, leaving my mind in a haze
I can feel the block, the pent up energy stuck in all too familiar ways
It starts in my fingers,
moves up through my hand, where the words begin to linger
Soon my wrist and forearm begin to ache
feeling the pangs of stagnation left with no wake
My elbow stiffens as the words and thoughts continue to pile;
signs it's been a while!
If no action is taken soon enough,
my shoulder, neck, and head begin to feel rough
It's not just about finding the time,
sometimes the words just can't find the line.
I stare at my journal, pen in hand
impatiently waiting for it to land.
The words stuck, never finding the page;
You'd think this would get easier with age!
Apparently, the walls and layers meant to keep everyone else from seeing my light,
prevent me from exploring the deeper parts of my mind.
As difficult and raw as it may be,
In order to allow my own thoughts to flow free...
I must shed all my layers and be
vulnerable, uncomfortable, Authentically
ME
So, what does this mean? How does this change things moving forward?
This means as I continue to explore the shadows of my mind, you all will be along for the ride. Whether you read one, or two, or all of my posts, you will catch more than just glimpses of me, more than just “Flashes of Brilliance”.
Whether all that I find is brilliant or not.
I am sure this is the first of may road blocks I will encounter along the way. Bear with me as I continue to turn this “Stage Fright” into “Stage ‘Write'” 😉 LOL!
Cheers to TRUSTING THE PROCESS!!